She's as Timid as a Mouse
Tired...We've just been so busy trying to get prepared for Steve's graduation that was supposed to take place tomorrow, that I just haven't had the time to come see how everyone was doing.
It's predicted to rain tomorrow and now Steve's party is postponed until a sufficient date is chosen that works with almost all the party-members.
...And at this rate, it could be twenty years from now. Ah....
Scarlet is in China and I hope she is having the time of her life.
<3
I've been thinking about you, little Jade. <3
My Jenny-bean is distraught, and I can't seem to find her anywhere.
...I need your number. I need to hear your voice.
I need you to know I won't hurt you like them.
I'll never...hurt you.
I'll never leave you.
...I love you.
POCKY. I SAW YOUR GRADUATION PICTURE. YOU ARE SO CUTEEE. <3 AW! <3
Matt Specht was selling DVDs for a dollar, and I picked up The DaVinci Code.
I just adore Tom Hanks.
And my Dad bought a bag of UFC dvds and...lol, blu-rays.
EVEN THOUGH...We don't have a blu-ray player.
Mmhmm...
I called Matt and told him the situation with the party.
He's going to come over tomorrow so we can at-least celebrate SOMETHING with my brother.
I think I'll take us out to dinner, or to the movies.
I just want Steve to know how much we all love him, even when everything seems pretty bleak.
I'm....still in shock over Michael Jackson's passing.
I honestly couldn't believe, even when the coroner confirmed it.
I still don't think I believe it.
I...can not accept death.
I...will not.
And I can only imagine how detrimental this will be in the future, but I...
...I can not.
I truly believe I will live forever.
I know how foolish this must sound to virtually everyone, but there's nothing I can do about it.
And I have no way of describing this.
...This not just fear. It's...a lack of understanding death.
Knowing it's gravity and pain, and trying to block it from my mind.
Grip and rip at life.
It's a refusal to believe in someone not physically existing any-longer.
It hurts...worse than anything.
It's crippling...and I barely recover when someone passes.
...I've been like this for as long as I have been alive.
And I don't think it will ever change.
....Mrmrmr.
I know many people have mixed feelings on this man.
But even if we deny it, he has been apart of all of our lives.
Just like every person who has ever touched you, ever spoken to you.
To anyone or anything that you have ever seen has.
There is a piece of all of us...in all of us.
There is a piece of me, in you.
I have to go to the bank and to Staples now.
Hopefully I can accomplish everything on my "to-do list", even as it grows exponentially like bacteria in a festering wound.
...Ew, morbid. <3
I love you all.
...All.
<3
Devious Comments
Ohh, I missed having you around for this week, it's nice to hear from you again. <3
I bet you're all getting excited for the graduation party? You're really putting your all into it by the sounds of things, and with good reason. I hope everything goes okay with that.
I have something sketched up for you, darlin'.
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"Look at the size of that fucking duck!" ~ The Rev.
Beautiful icon by *Ginnunga.
I love you.
I'll message you my number, okay?
And you're too great to ever be like them... ever.
I've been listening to Thriller ever since I heard. I haven't let go yet. He's not gone. Not yet for me.
There is a piece of all of us...in all of us.
There is a piece of me, in you.
Meeting you made me truly realize this.
The one sentence I hate the most is, "You existed without it."
Once you meet a person, or discover a thought, you are forever changed. We are always changing, becoming closer to more and more people.
Sometimes it threatens to pull me to bits, like everyone's got a hook in me and is going somewheres different.
But I cannot imagine myself any other way.
I...don't know how I feel about death. I believe in ghosts, but not in angels. I have no ideas on how people become ghosts. I just can't contemplate it.
It drives me mad to believe in something--to have SEEN proof on many occasions--but not have any idea how it happens. That makes me sure it cannot happen to me.
I'm also one of the firm believers in there being a way to stop death. I don't know what it is and I know it's probably not a good thing, but...it's got to be out there.
Angelllll. I love you. I hope you get to talk to Jennifer and she is okay.
I will hopefully stop procrastinating and send my stuff to you soon, too!
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We'll draw a peaceful vibration in an arc across the sky!
We'll create an object that won't fail to compete with this planet!
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contest.
[link]
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Oh, Mark, it's perfect.
I got a lolita skirt there.
I wish you where online! I want to tell you all about china but i'm so afraid to ramble on on this comment thing <3;; We need to hang ouuuut! All three of us.
I love you!
Also....Micheal Jackson will never be dead. He will always live on in his music so long as you can still hear it. You do not need a physical body to be alive...Remember that <3
He was one of the greatest music artists ever and he will always be there in the form of his greatest talent.
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Czech <3
That's all I can really say!
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With my feet on the dash, the world doesn't matter.
When you feel embarrassed then I' ll be your pride
When you need directions then I'll be the guide
For all time.
For all time
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