This is Not Fun Anymore
HurtHe packed alot of his stuff, mostly protein and fishing equipment and drove off.
I wasn't here when it happened. I was across the street with Lucien babysitting my Uncle's dogs.
I was gone 46 minutes.
...How did this happen in 46 minutes?
He's been taking steroids again.
He must be in his second cycle, and...His aggression is off the charts.
I can't recognize him when he's like this.
It's beyond scary.
It's...violent. The feelings inside of me are violent. Ripping pain.
There...is no way to explain how much you want to cradle a person you love and in the same stinging breath, violently shove them away.
...I....can not....lose him.
I can not.
I am afraid of death...so very afraid of death.
It taunts me in every shadow.
Every misunderstanding is a step into oblivion.
And I feel like it's creeping up behind the doors of the rooms where my loved ones sleep.
I don't...understand anything anymore.
And I've lost some part of my care-free spirit in these past 2 years.
I can not let this...happen to me.
I can't let the fear of un-knowing destroy me.
I wish we could all make a vow to eachother...
Promise we won't leave eachother's sides.
That we won't ever die.
Or disappear.
That we will speak when we are hurt.
That we will seek eachother out when we're suffering.
We won't keep ourselves locked inside...but share it with the ones we love most, knowing they will help us.
...I have alot to do.
Two more commissions...one of which I'm having a TERRIBLE time getting right.
I'm so frustrated, I just want to rip it to shreds.
I need to mail Squeek's things, and get to the bank before it closes.
I wish I knew how Jenn was...doing.
I called you, Cookie. But you weren't there.
I wish he would come home.
...And even more so, I wish you were here.
It's...crazy how much I need you, Rachel.
...Even in a time like this, you are always on my mind.
I used to say with such an air of humor and happiness that there was never a dull moment in the life of my family.
...I wish I could take that back.
Devious Comments
You have no idea how badly I want to hug you. There's no way you deserve to have all this going on.
I hope he comes back, safe and well.
I hope you feel better soon.
And really, everything you said - speaking when people get hurt, instead of holding it inside ... the world would be a much nicer place if we could all do that.
You're an amazing friend, and I love you - we all do. <3 Always here if you need me.
--
"Look at the size of that fucking duck!" ~ The Rev.
Beautiful icon by *Ginnunga.
--
Welci - the cute and new way of saying welcome!
Use "Welci" instead of welcome and create an internet phenomon that gets the cute little word it's own page on Wikipedia! Just remember where it came from...ME! ^_^
--
I don't know if you're heaven or hell...all I know is that I want you.<3
God damn you and the way you made me love you. </3
Angelique...I...I Know you can get through this, you and your family...
I know it.
You are so incredible and aagh. I can't find the words. I just can't.
--
We'll draw a peaceful vibration in an arc across the sky!
We'll create an object that won't fail to compete with this planet!
---
contest.
[link]
---
Oh, Mark, it's perfect.
Previous PageNext Page